Catching Up: Part 1…. Life’s little potholes.

The other day a friend of mine said, “No one has a perfect relationship. If they say they do, they’re fucking liars.” And she’s right. Relationships are tough and it’s tougher to maintain them. I realize this a few weeks back when I had a complete emotional breakdown because I thought the BF and me were drifting apart.

It was on a Sunday afternoon that my little meltdown happened. I was downstairs watching TV and the BF was upstairs reading a book. Considering the fact that we don’t see each other all week (do to my vampire like work hours), we haven’t had a free weekend all summer (because of parties, graduations, bar mitzvahs, etc.) and this was the only day we had alone together. It felt a little strange to me that we were in the same house but doing separate things. So I went upstairs to talk this situation over with him. About 5 minutes into the conversation my emotional dam had burst. It had been almost literally weeks since we had seen each other or even been alone together. My boss had utterly screwed me at work, I had received rejection upon rejection from the resumes I had been sending out and without knowing it I had reached my breaking point.

I began to cry uncontrollably for the next half an hour babbling along the way. This was shock to the BF and to me as well. It just came out and I couldn’t stop it. I usually don’t try to show any vulnerability of any kind. It hasn’t served me well in the past when I did. And when you have been through as much shit as I have you think you’re tough enough to handle anything. But once in a while there’s a crack in the armor and that’s when you find out none of us are as tough as we think we are. The BF had no idea I was capable of this kind of emotion and thought it was refreshing to find out I was just as human as him.

After my little “episode” the BF and I sat discussed what to do next. Several of our friends (who are in similar situations) suggested we get away for a little vacation. To get away somewhere, alone, to get re-acquainted and to remember why we were together in the first place. We decided it was time for a trip to Toronto!